NEW YEARS 2017 | GIVEAWAY

Hi all – I’ve got another fantastic giveaway for you all!

The last giveaway I did on twitter was so well received, I was shocked. I am so grateful to everyone who took part – it means a lot that you can all get involved with my little blog! A big congratulations to Katie once again, who was the lucky winner!

I ran this giveaway in December over my vlogmas but because that ended in such awful fashion I didn’t finish it – the entries from back then will all be included, so not to worry!

Now it’s a new year and a new giveaway – and I’ve got everything you need to get the year off to a great start. Have a little look at what you can win…

HAPPY JACKSON 2017 DIARY

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This diary is BEAUT. Filled with quotes to live by alongside the usual diary, this includes everything you’ll need to motivate you past those January blues. I love Happy Jackson and this diary was so popular this year, and now one of you lucky lot is going to get your hands on it.

NEW LOOK ROSE GOLD WATCH

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New Look watches are ridiculously underrated. This watch is the most beautiful colour and has so many beautiful sparkly diamonds (diamonds? Rhinestones? You know what I mean, shiny bits) encrusted in the face. New Years Resolution to improve your time keeping? I’ve got your back!

If you’d like to enter this giveaway, here’s how to do it!
RT my pinned tweet on twitter:
(Insert giveaway tweet)
-Follow me on Instagram

BONUS ENTRIES
-Subscribe to me on YouTube (this would mean so much to me, go on help a girl out!)
-Tell me (on any platform) why you’d love to win these goodies!

Best of luck ladies, lets smash another giveaway! ❤️

Musical Goals 2017 & an announcement!

This Roald Dahl quote really struck me the other day.roald-dahl

Life really feels increasingly like it’s slipping away from me. Last year I made an active effort to stop that happening in regards to my health, my wants and needs and to really relish every opportunity I have to ensure I don’t lose out. I need some wild stories to tell to grandkids one day!

It occurred to me when I found this quote that every so often I have a moment like this where I realise there are a million things I want to do that I am just not doing. It’s easy to blame the reason why on a few things – money, time, stress, exhaustion – but at the end of they day all that remains is that I’m not getting certain shit DONE. That’s not very girlboss-y is it?

To be honest, I did a hell of a lot last year to try and test my comfort zone. I travelled further than I’ve been before and made some memories that I will never forget. I finally started pushing my blogging, and I’m so proud that I can finally see what seems to be the light at the end of the tunnel after a few years of mental turmoil.

There’s just one last thing to tackle (and why am I saying “tackle” when it’s ultimately something I will enjoy?!) and that’s getting back into music.

Now I KNOW I have said it a million times. I know I have intended to go to all the open mic nights near me, release new music, post more music on YouTube and then ducked out of it because that toxic little comfort zone of mine has sucked me back in instead. BELIEVE ME I might sound fickle to you lot but in my own head it’s more confusing. I love singing. I love music. There is nothing in the whole world that makes me feel better than belting out a tune on stage to an audience, knowing I’m killing it. So why can’t I just get back into the swing of it? Why did I stop?

The truth is, i just don’t know. Back when music used to be my life, when I was posting on YouTube a lot and going to gigs and open mic nights every single day of the week, I gained some people who were big influences in my life and I wasn’t a strong enough person to listen to my own heartbeat and do what I wanted to do. I was too concerned with what other people thought of me, whether they would be impressed by what I was doing, whether it was right by whatever image these people expected of me. At that point, being that girl that sings and gets tattoos wasn’t what they wanted or expected. Instead of telling them to fuck off, I let them pretty much dictate a lot of my life.

Since then, a lot has changed. I’ve found my tribe, who all know what I ultimately want, but they’re not going to push me in any direction at all. They’re going to let me get on with whatever I want to do, which is exactly how it should be. In the past year a lot has changed within me and I’ve learnt who matters, who doesn’t, and where my boundaries are. So I’m picking things up again and getting back to basics – remembering why I started singing in the first place and just having fun with it.

So what music goals have I got for this year?

1. Remember – and practice – the things that made me love music in the first place. That means going to more gigs (other people’s), dancing around like a maniac in my room to old records, and belting out whatever song I want to around the house for no reason.

2. Record and release my EP! I never stopped writing music – for me, it’s the same as writing a journal. I’ve had a lot happen this year and it’s going to sound awesome when I’ve turned it into a collection of songs people can listen to. I cannot wait to release it, film videos for it, and generally just get back in the studio to reconnect with it all again!

3. Incorporate more music into my blog – I’m working on a bit of an overhaul here on lizziearkell.com that will include more videos and listen links so you guys can hear a bit more of what I’m about with my music. The idea of having it all in one place and it all making sense sounds so good to me right now and I can’t wait to get there!

For now, you can see the newest release on my Soundcloud – a playlist named “LA in LA”. Click here to have a listen! These are covers tracks I recorded in LA last year (well duh) with the grammy award winning producer Mike Gaydusek at the world renowned Nightbird Studios, I’m so happy I can share these! Please have a listen – I hope you love them.

What are your goals this year?

Lizzie xo

Why do I feel guilty making my own decisions?

(Just a quick note for any potential employers who may read this – don’t worry, I’ll turn up to any interview you may offer me. I’m only applying for jobs I actually want now…_

Today, I had a job interview that I cancelled last minute and didn’t show up to. It wasn’t because I couldn’t be bothered, or that I wanted to go do something else, or that I got anxious (although that can happen to me) I just knew it wasn’t right for me. However, I’m still thinking about everyone else’s opinions 3 hours after I’ve made that decision – why?

Let me give you some context: I’m 21, and I’m temping at the moment, after chucking in a job that was contributing to a lot of stress and illness back in August. This was a full time retail job that didn’t offer me any realistic career progression and I had been doing for almost a year with decreasing passion. I was signed off by my doctor and after a complicated few weeks travelling, I started temping.

I’m actually quite enjoying temping. It’s giving me some work experience, the money isn’t bad and my recruitment agent is brilliant. I like that I’ve got time to figure out what it is I want to do long term whilst not feeling tied down anywhere awful. But I can’t keep at it forever, I’ve got plans to get on with! I made a commitment to myself that the next permanent job I took would be in a field I enjoy, good enough money for me to start the next chapter of my life and wouldn’t jeopardise my health.

So as I sat in my car this morning, ready to turn one way out of a junction and drive off to an interview for a management role at a clothes store 30 mins away from my house, I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I got about 5 minutes of the way there and turned round to go home instead – I can’t take a job in a sector I don’t enjoy, for too little money and a large risk of me getting too stressed and pressured again. Retail makes me hate the world. I don’t want to feel like that again, so no ta. An interview would just waste everyone’s time.

I went home and applied for some real jobs I might actually enjoy, and applied for a part time course that will help me on the way to my chosen career path, so it wasn’t a waste. So why, oh why, are the “just go and see how you feel” comments still floating around my head?

It was really tough to decide not to go to this interview, but I couldn’t get hold of anyone close to me and the internet wasn’t giving me the answers I wanted. I was looking for permission to bail – even though I knew what was right for me. I’d spoken to people earlier and voiced my doubts who could see my worries, but advised I went just in case. Well, I didn’t. I may have missed an opportunity I suppose, but I’m pretty sure I saved some time and an awkward feeling of settling for something I didn’t want. Again.

Why, at 21, do I feel the need to be affirmed in my decisions? I can pay my own bills, drive my own car, choose what I want and what I don’t want. Why do I need others to help me take appropriate action?

I feel like this post should come to some resounding conclusive thought, but it won’t. The quick answer is I don’t know why this was so difficult for me, and I don’t like that it was. But one thing is for sure – I said no to something I really, really didn’t want to do. And although that might be tiny, I’m really bloody happy that I did.