Body positivity for everyone

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I’ve seen way too much negativity lately, and I’m writing to tell you I’m your local blogging glitter fairy who’s about to exterminate all of that bullshit. Ain’t nobody got time for that.

The term “body posi” creates an idea in my head of an overweight woman who doesn’t give an eff and loves her body despite being overweight. It really shouldn’t give me this picture (first of all, “despite” being overweight? Why did my mind go there?!) . Body positivity should be creating pictures of everyone who might need it. Anyone can, easily enough, feel insecure about their body – so fat, slim, man, woman, black, white, young, old, able bodied or not, you’re allowed to feel however you want about your body, regardless of whether you meet societies standards. The parts of my body I like don’t necessarily conform to societies standards of young women, and perhaps the parts I hate are what other people would prefer to have. Either way, it’s no ones business but my own, because it’s my body.

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There seems to be negativity around expressing insecurities in your body if you’re slim or meet the “requirements” set for beauty more than someone else. That’s bullshit.
There’s negativity around men being insecure about their bodies, “you’re a guy, it’s not as bad for you” – that’s bullshit too. As a curvy woman, I’m lucky that there’s support for me if i’m feeling my curves, and also if I’m not, because the culture is there for me. But for so many others, there’s not enough people cheering in the background for whatever they feel like.

Body and beauty standards are enforced by companies that ultimately, want our money. They make their “GOALS!” posts incredibly unachievable and make us feel like if we buy the mascara/clothes/perfume in the advert, we’ll feel as sexy/confident/cool as the model pictured. This trickles down to us as consumers, and we use it to pit ourselves against each other. This is inhumane and makes us dick-ish to be honest. You’re not better than anybody else because you look more like an advert than they do – and we’ve all been there -so why do we do it?

Well, because it’s everywhere. Every time you scroll through instagram, every bus advert that drives past you, every advert on TV, in a magazine…you know, you’ve seen it. I don’t need to list them all. So when we fight back, when we say “you know what, I’m happy however I look, I’m worth more” we’re exercising our strength. And when we say “you look brilliant” or even “how you look has no impact on your value” to others, we enforce a much more supportive atmosphere for everybody involved. Isn’t that what we all want?

I don’t want to ramble my way through this blog post. I’m not what you’d call a “body positive” blogger, so I won’t pretend that I’m an expert – I’m trying to tread carefully – but I truly think this issue touches us all at some point and I wanted to remind anyone reading that you are more than enough without considering your looks at all. You feel great today? Your make up is on fleek? You’ve put on a few pounds? A few stone? Your clothes don’t make you feel good? You’re perfect, capable of a lot more than you know, and absolutely enough. Don’t forget – and remind someone else too!

What do you think of body image? How does it affect you?

Lizzie xo

What I REALLY think of blogging…and where it’s taking me

Hey! Hope you’re doing really well. Welcome back!

The way I look at the whole blogging industry has changed massively lately, so let’s get straight into it shall we? Get ready for some kinda brutal truths.

First of all, I bloody well hate drama, and the blogging world is full of it. I’ve been commended for being honest lately, and no matter what side of which argument you’ve been on, I still don’t care. Save the drama for your mama. All these talks of female bloggers being catty and bitchy – can we stop already? We’re strong women, capable of a lot more than tweeting insults, and to THAT blogging company that continues to belittle, mug off and insult small bloggers? Ugh. Done now. Please exit the door stage right.

If you don’t know me yet, I really believe in the power of women. I believe we’ve got so much more strength than the world has believed of us for a very long time, and I believe when we stick together, giving each other help and opportunities, there are fewer better feelings of accomplishment. Unfortunately, I think we’ve also got a duty as women to prove we can be better than the stereotype (we shouldn’t have to prove it, but I think a lot of the world doesn’t believe that yet.) SO, it makes me want to stand on top of the world, as a woman, and scream “I told you so!”.

In short, I think we really owe it to ourselves to not only support each other, but to be better than the “catty, bitchy, two faced” stereotype. We’re in a professional setting and particularly as bloggers, we have a lot of people watching. We can do more, spread better messages and help each other without all the aggravation. I’d like to point out that there are plenty of men in the blogging community too, many of whom can find themselves wrapped up in all this drama – I’m just so passionate about women building each other up that it inspired this post.

Don’t get me wrong, there are some amazing people in the blogging industry who I’ve become friends with and I’m insanely proud of, for their personalities and strength just as much as their achievements. And when I look at all the people taking advantage, being creative and creating their own opportunities, I’m beyond inspired. There are some people in the scene really killing it at the moment and tying all their branding together and creating their careers – I am SO FOR THIS. *applause*

But on the other hand, I’ve had a wake up call in terms of blogging. I’ve figured out what I don’t like about it – and in turn realised what I want to do with my blog. I’m not motivated by reviewing lipsticks or telling you what’s in my handbag. I don’t talk about that kind of stuff on a daily basis, so why write about it? I’m not about fashion or make up (don’t get me wrong, I LOVE those things, but I don’t get a lot out of reviewing them or posting about what outfit I’m wearing that day. It’s not what lights me up, and there are people out there who have more love for it than I do.)

I’ve found my niche in blogging and I’m realising that I need to write about my passions rather than what everyone else is used to hearing. It might be new and a bit harder to predict but it’s what I need to do for me, so it’s what I’ll do.

Expect to see more fun, creative, adventurous posts that I’m putting my heart and soul into. Encourage me to stick to my guns, if I need it! Give me a minute, while I figure out where I am and where I’m headed – I’m hoping I’m in the right direction now and listening to myself, rather than what everyone else wants. In short, I’m about to do me. (unedited.)

So, here I am:

IMG_5985I’m Lizzie. I’m 22 and I’m obsessed with creativity. I live for good music, belly laughs, strong make up looks, being individual and passionate about what I believe in. I’m big on equal rights. I’m also big on chocolate biscuits and Amy Winehouse. I stick up HARD for my friends and family and I don’t take anyone’s shit. I swear sometimes. I forget things super easily. I’m late to things occasionally and I’m a CLASSIC Gemini (yep, really.) I’m a listener and a talker, but my favourite thing is to sing and I’ve forgotten that about myself in the last few years. I’m on a journey to remember who I am and what I want to do. I’m ambitious, without knowing entirely where I’m headed. I’ve got flaws and drawbacks, but I’ve got great qualities too – and as I write this, I’m vowing to do better than the doubts in my head. I hope you can think of some amazing things about yourself too – let me know in the comments the amazing things I should know about you and your blog!

With Love,Lizzie x

2017.

It’s been a long time since I’ve written a blog post. 2017 has been a pretty tough year for me and the blog that I once loved, pursued and nurtured has fallen by the wayside to make room in my life for prioritising my mental health. That is not a bad thing by any stretch, but I’ve really missed it and the blogging community!
Whilst everyone is sharing how brilliant their 2017’s were, I’m being reminded that the blogging community is filled with positivity when you least expect it. It has an awful reputation sometimes (that we are all better than) but the amount of posts I’ve read about how much everyone is learning, growing and achieving has made me really proud to be part of an industry where so much change occurs.

I’ve had a real mixed bag of things happen this year, but I’m not here to dwell on the bad stuff. Here’s everything I’m grateful for from 2017 and here’s to the next year – may it be even better than the last for you!

 

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H E A L T H

2017 had some emotional ups and downs that really took their toll on my mental health, but in a way I’m glad for them. Family drama has reminded me who’s got my back, and hitting the lowest point with my mental health gave me the motivation to keep getting back up again and becoming stronger. I know everyone online seems to harp on about mental health, and that’s not what I’m trying to do here – I’m just really, really glad I’ve had the opportunity to begin moving on this year. The help and support I’ve had has put me in a place at the end of the year where I feel ready to really make things better. I’m incredibly lucky with the support I’ve had with that. I’ve also had a lot of confusion surrounding my physical health as well this year, being misdiagnosed with different allergies and intolerances and put on diets by doctors that were really wrong for me (thanks for that!) but I’m now seeing a dietician and I feel in a really prepared place to take care of myself next year. Whether that’s getting more sleep, seeing my friends more, drinking water or eating right, I’m putting myself and my health at the very top of my priorities in 2018 and I can’t lie, I’m REALLY excited about it!

C A R E E R

I started a new job back in May that I have absolutely adored. The time I’ve been there has absolutely flown by, and in the past couple of months the role has started to really challenge me. I’m so proud of the company and the job I do and what I’ve achieved working there and I’m now at a place where I need to figure out if I am ready to up my game with them and work even harder. I want to make sure it’s an active decision to either run with the massive amount of work I’m being given or to decide it’s too much – either way, I want to ensure it’s me actively engaging in my career and making the decisions.

In 2018, I’ve got some more creative goals for my career outside of the workplace (I’m not sure if that makes sense! I’m trying to steer my career on my own terms and investigate where it really, truly is I want to be and what I want to do). I’m hoping I can introduce some more creativity into my career and push it forward single handedly (watch this space!)

C R E A T I V I T Y

This year I have IGNORED my creativity so much and it’s been crap (let’s not mince words). My blog, youtube, music, all got ignored. Can’t remember the last time I did anything like see a play or go to an art gallery simply because I love it. 2017 has shaken me up and made me realise that though. 2018 is going to be all about me and my creativity, nurturing it and reminding myself just how important it is to me. I am the artsy-est person through and through and I have completely forgotten that this year, because it’s all been about growing up and preparing my life for a different direction. Moving out and away from some difficult situations (or trying to) has completely dominated my year and I haven’t had the time to just relax and be myself. Well, screw that. I need me time in 2018!

L O V E

Okay okay, I won’t get too mushy, but I’m ending 2017 in a really good place in terms of the people I love, because this year I really learnt who cares about me and who deserves my time. I’m ending 2017 with fewer friends (fake ones, who never wanted to help or let me help them. I wish them well though) and different family. Again, you might feel like you have to keep toxic family members around simply because they’re your blood. My timeline and history and family ties are the biggest proof ever that this is not true. If someone mistreats you, let them get on with their own toxicity and look after yourself and your people. I am so grateful for my best friends, family that I reconnected with this year, my little sister, and my fantastic boyfriend who really has been my rock this year. 2018 will see me move in with him and throw a massive party with everyone I love! (Thank you Charlie :))

A N D    T H E    R E S T

All in all, it’s been a tough, but productive year. I got a great job (that is hard work) started a really cute penpal friendship (Hey Annaleid if you’re reading this! Thank you for making my year better! While you’re all reading, check out Anneleid’s blog:) I travelled, saved money, and moved house (busy bee) I took some much needed time for myself mentally in various way and I have everything I need to enter 2018 in a healthy, productive, fun way. This is the year I’m going to re-jiggle all my priorities and make sure I’m happier!

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I hope you all have an amazing (and safe) time tonight if you’re out partying, and if you’ve read all the way to the end of this post THANK YOU. I haven’t written a post in forever and to have people that still follow me and encourage me to do this is amazing. Have a wonderful 2018, all my love x

Is it possible to stay positive in negative circumstances?

If there’s anything I’ve learnt, it’s that positivity is not something that you can just choose to have. People seem to think it is, but it’s entirely human to be affected by the world, by seemingly insignificant events, by other people. As the saying goes, it’s okay not to be okay.

I’ve also learnt that negativity sucks a lot more when you really, really don’t want to feel it. That may sound odd initially, but you know there are those times and people in life – the ones where negativity is just the easiest way out? Putting everything down to “my life is awful” makes it seem a lot more like you’re not in control of your circumstances and life is just bad, all in all. If you feel negative about life and you want to change that, but just can’t shake it, it hurts a lot more. It becomes a steady journey to positivity that is tiring and takes a lot of time and effort. (It’s a healthy journey, one you should definitely take if you feel like you want your life to change – but it’s difficult!)

What I’m saying is there are a lot of people, myself included, who may feel kind of crappy from day to day. Who need the odd pick – me – up to remind themselves just how well they are doing and that they’re on the way to a better state of mind. If that rings a bell, this ones for you! Grab a cuppa, a notebook, and let me try to help in some teeny tiny way.

1. WRITE DOWN EVERYTHING THAT YOU’RE PROUD OF YOURSELF FOR.
Everything. Every single insignificant little thing. Gotten dressed, when you couldn’t face it yesterday? That’s amazing! Made lunch and looked after yourself today? Write it down! Written a blog post? Walked the dog? Made your bed? Be proud of everything you can be proud of, because you deserve to. You’ll have days when you ace job interviews, score a hot date, achieve your dreams, but they don’t arrive every day. So write down all the little things you’re proud of yourself for until another one of those days comes back around. Find that twinkly “if I can do that I can do this” feeling and KEEP it. (Keep this list nearby and look at it when you need a confidence boost – and don’t diminish your achievements!)

2. SELF CARE.
In case no one’s told you today, I hope you’ve eaten some veggies and drunk some water. (If you haven’t, go get some. I’ll wait) I hope you’ve looked at an old selfie and gone “WOW I’m fabulous”. I hope you’ve had some rest, laughed at something cute or funny (if you haven’t, here is a fave meme of mine to help) and I hope you have a good old pamper sesh. Stimulate your senses, and that might sound odd, but it’s what the professionals advise when you’re feeling out of touch.

3. REMIND YOURSELF THAT EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY, AND YOU’RE ON A JOURNEY.
I struggle with this one. I see happiness in the achievements rather than the journey itself – and how much do we miss out on by doing that? It might be years before you achieve what you’re longing for. It might be hours. But ultimately you don’t know, so find some fun in what you’re doing now. You want to just graduate already? Take pride in the fact you’re learning. You want to change your image? Think of how fun that will be! Even if you’re feeling the lowest you have ever or can imagine ever feeling – it will not last. Those massive hits of achievement you’re chasing won’t last either. It’s the little things in life that are constant and frequent, so you have to find some goodness in those.

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4. COMPARISON IS THE THIEF OF JOY.
I would LOVE to have some of the things in people I see online (talking personality traits, not belongings, although there are some pretty fine handbags floating around Instagram at the moment) I adore and am inspired by go getting, sassy women. Even my music taste is ruled by them and my goal in life day to day is be one of them. I can’t do that everyday. I can’t be sassy and confident every single day, I’m not there yet. I don’t know if I ever will be, because what are we without our mistakes and our down days? Lord knows that social media and our society in general is very competitive and if you’re feeling down, it can make you feel a whole lot worse. I’m not saying don’t compare yourself to others, because you’ve heard it before, and it’s near enough impossible to do. Compare if you want, because I know you will – but remember that every person you EVER meet is jealous (or has been jealous) of something in someone else. We’re all trying to keep up, and until you just become happy with being you, and different from others, you’ll be anxious about things that other people don’t even notice.

5. DON’T UNDERESTIMATE YOUR FAVOURITE THINGS.
For me, making a coffee, putting some lipstick on, and finding anything tagged with “girl boss” is a sure way to remind me of the sass-master I am. For you it might be the great outdoors, reading a book, baking a cake – what tiny things make you happy? A certain song? Person? Dress? Find something tiny and positive and throw yourself right into it. Then repeat with other little things, all day long.

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To conclude – this isn’t a definitive “I KNOW HOW TO MAKE YOU HAPPIER!” guide, and it’s not intended to patronise either. It’s just a little note to say hey, I’ve been there. I hope you’re okay. If all else fails, drop me a tweet (@LizzieArkell) and we can wallow in our rubbish feelings together (and I’ll send you a gif to cheer you up.)

Love Always,
Lizzie x

Life Update | I’m going to Prague!

IMG_4507Hey guys! It’s been a while since I blogged (d’oh) but I’ve got a real opportunity to get ahead of things again, inspire myself and create some great content. I’m jetting to one of the most beautiful cities in the world – Prague!

As I write this, it’s Thursday and I’m blogging in Costa (so cliched but I love it) and I’m leaving with the boyf on Monday. I’ve still got a million and one things to do, but I am literally counting down the days because OMG HOLIDAY YES PLS.

Charlie (the boyfriend) is completely to thank for this trip. Basically, he got it for me as a Christmas present last year and scheduled it so that we fly on Monday – our first anniversary! How perfect?! He’s literally whisking me away to Prague. *swoon*. Apologies for the romantic connotations but I can’t deny that this is the most thoughtful, romantic gift I’ve ever been given. Nothing is better than getting time with your partner, and in a gorgeous city you’ve never seen before? Win.

If that isn’t cute enough, we’re staying in a palace that’s been converted into a hotel, right in the centre of the city. We’ve got a day of sightseeing planned (and lots of beerhouse time planned too, of course) and our anniversary dinner. I am just praying the time doesn’t slip by too quickly, because I think this is going to be a trip to really remember!

Have any of you guys been before? Can you give me any tips on things to do? We’ve got one free day we’re looking to fill! Expect lots of pictures, maybe a video and a blogpost or two, and a LOT of “Prague beer is too strong for me” tweets.

Follow me to see what we get up to!

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Lizzie x

NEW YEARS 2017 | GIVEAWAY

Hi all – I’ve got another fantastic giveaway for you all!

The last giveaway I did on twitter was so well received, I was shocked. I am so grateful to everyone who took part – it means a lot that you can all get involved with my little blog! A big congratulations to Katie once again, who was the lucky winner!

I ran this giveaway in December over my vlogmas but because that ended in such awful fashion I didn’t finish it – the entries from back then will all be included, so not to worry!

Now it’s a new year and a new giveaway – and I’ve got everything you need to get the year off to a great start. Have a little look at what you can win…

HAPPY JACKSON 2017 DIARY

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This diary is BEAUT. Filled with quotes to live by alongside the usual diary, this includes everything you’ll need to motivate you past those January blues. I love Happy Jackson and this diary was so popular this year, and now one of you lucky lot is going to get your hands on it.

NEW LOOK ROSE GOLD WATCH

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New Look watches are ridiculously underrated. This watch is the most beautiful colour and has so many beautiful sparkly diamonds (diamonds? Rhinestones? You know what I mean, shiny bits) encrusted in the face. New Years Resolution to improve your time keeping? I’ve got your back!

If you’d like to enter this giveaway, here’s how to do it!
RT my pinned tweet on twitter:
(Insert giveaway tweet)
-Follow me on Instagram

BONUS ENTRIES
-Subscribe to me on YouTube (this would mean so much to me, go on help a girl out!)
-Tell me (on any platform) why you’d love to win these goodies!

Best of luck ladies, lets smash another giveaway! ❤️

Musical Goals 2017 & an announcement!

This Roald Dahl quote really struck me the other day.roald-dahl

Life really feels increasingly like it’s slipping away from me. Last year I made an active effort to stop that happening in regards to my health, my wants and needs and to really relish every opportunity I have to ensure I don’t lose out. I need some wild stories to tell to grandkids one day!

It occurred to me when I found this quote that every so often I have a moment like this where I realise there are a million things I want to do that I am just not doing. It’s easy to blame the reason why on a few things – money, time, stress, exhaustion – but at the end of they day all that remains is that I’m not getting certain shit DONE. That’s not very girlboss-y is it?

To be honest, I did a hell of a lot last year to try and test my comfort zone. I travelled further than I’ve been before and made some memories that I will never forget. I finally started pushing my blogging, and I’m so proud that I can finally see what seems to be the light at the end of the tunnel after a few years of mental turmoil.

There’s just one last thing to tackle (and why am I saying “tackle” when it’s ultimately something I will enjoy?!) and that’s getting back into music.

Now I KNOW I have said it a million times. I know I have intended to go to all the open mic nights near me, release new music, post more music on YouTube and then ducked out of it because that toxic little comfort zone of mine has sucked me back in instead. BELIEVE ME I might sound fickle to you lot but in my own head it’s more confusing. I love singing. I love music. There is nothing in the whole world that makes me feel better than belting out a tune on stage to an audience, knowing I’m killing it. So why can’t I just get back into the swing of it? Why did I stop?

The truth is, i just don’t know. Back when music used to be my life, when I was posting on YouTube a lot and going to gigs and open mic nights every single day of the week, I gained some people who were big influences in my life and I wasn’t a strong enough person to listen to my own heartbeat and do what I wanted to do. I was too concerned with what other people thought of me, whether they would be impressed by what I was doing, whether it was right by whatever image these people expected of me. At that point, being that girl that sings and gets tattoos wasn’t what they wanted or expected. Instead of telling them to fuck off, I let them pretty much dictate a lot of my life.

Since then, a lot has changed. I’ve found my tribe, who all know what I ultimately want, but they’re not going to push me in any direction at all. They’re going to let me get on with whatever I want to do, which is exactly how it should be. In the past year a lot has changed within me and I’ve learnt who matters, who doesn’t, and where my boundaries are. So I’m picking things up again and getting back to basics – remembering why I started singing in the first place and just having fun with it.

So what music goals have I got for this year?

1. Remember – and practice – the things that made me love music in the first place. That means going to more gigs (other people’s), dancing around like a maniac in my room to old records, and belting out whatever song I want to around the house for no reason.

2. Record and release my EP! I never stopped writing music – for me, it’s the same as writing a journal. I’ve had a lot happen this year and it’s going to sound awesome when I’ve turned it into a collection of songs people can listen to. I cannot wait to release it, film videos for it, and generally just get back in the studio to reconnect with it all again!

3. Incorporate more music into my blog – I’m working on a bit of an overhaul here on lizziearkell.com that will include more videos and listen links so you guys can hear a bit more of what I’m about with my music. The idea of having it all in one place and it all making sense sounds so good to me right now and I can’t wait to get there!

For now, you can see the newest release on my Soundcloud – a playlist named “LA in LA”. Click here to have a listen! These are covers tracks I recorded in LA last year (well duh) with the grammy award winning producer Mike Gaydusek at the world renowned Nightbird Studios, I’m so happy I can share these! Please have a listen – I hope you love them.

What are your goals this year?

Lizzie xo

Why do I feel guilty making my own decisions?

(Just a quick note for any potential employers who may read this – don’t worry, I’ll turn up to any interview you may offer me. I’m only applying for jobs I actually want now…_

Today, I had a job interview that I cancelled last minute and didn’t show up to. It wasn’t because I couldn’t be bothered, or that I wanted to go do something else, or that I got anxious (although that can happen to me) I just knew it wasn’t right for me. However, I’m still thinking about everyone else’s opinions 3 hours after I’ve made that decision – why?

Let me give you some context: I’m 21, and I’m temping at the moment, after chucking in a job that was contributing to a lot of stress and illness back in August. This was a full time retail job that didn’t offer me any realistic career progression and I had been doing for almost a year with decreasing passion. I was signed off by my doctor and after a complicated few weeks travelling, I started temping.

I’m actually quite enjoying temping. It’s giving me some work experience, the money isn’t bad and my recruitment agent is brilliant. I like that I’ve got time to figure out what it is I want to do long term whilst not feeling tied down anywhere awful. But I can’t keep at it forever, I’ve got plans to get on with! I made a commitment to myself that the next permanent job I took would be in a field I enjoy, good enough money for me to start the next chapter of my life and wouldn’t jeopardise my health.

So as I sat in my car this morning, ready to turn one way out of a junction and drive off to an interview for a management role at a clothes store 30 mins away from my house, I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I got about 5 minutes of the way there and turned round to go home instead – I can’t take a job in a sector I don’t enjoy, for too little money and a large risk of me getting too stressed and pressured again. Retail makes me hate the world. I don’t want to feel like that again, so no ta. An interview would just waste everyone’s time.

I went home and applied for some real jobs I might actually enjoy, and applied for a part time course that will help me on the way to my chosen career path, so it wasn’t a waste. So why, oh why, are the “just go and see how you feel” comments still floating around my head?

It was really tough to decide not to go to this interview, but I couldn’t get hold of anyone close to me and the internet wasn’t giving me the answers I wanted. I was looking for permission to bail – even though I knew what was right for me. I’d spoken to people earlier and voiced my doubts who could see my worries, but advised I went just in case. Well, I didn’t. I may have missed an opportunity I suppose, but I’m pretty sure I saved some time and an awkward feeling of settling for something I didn’t want. Again.

Why, at 21, do I feel the need to be affirmed in my decisions? I can pay my own bills, drive my own car, choose what I want and what I don’t want. Why do I need others to help me take appropriate action?

I feel like this post should come to some resounding conclusive thought, but it won’t. The quick answer is I don’t know why this was so difficult for me, and I don’t like that it was. But one thing is for sure – I said no to something I really, really didn’t want to do. And although that might be tiny, I’m really bloody happy that I did.

24 THINGS EVERY MILLENNIAL GAL THINKS ON CHRISTMAS DAY

1. Jesus, it’s 11am. Remember when I used to wake up at 6?
2. YES, a pyjama day I don’t have to worry about. Or do I need to dress up? Shit, I should have gone on ASOS for a Christmas Dress.
3. Did my Advent Calendar come with 24 doors? Or was it 25? I better have some chocolate to eat for breakfast or I’ll cry.
4. YAY, presents.
5. Who bought me socks? Maybe you could pay my rent for a month instead, or buy me Wine? Come on people.
6. Ooh, baileys.
7. Is it too early for alcohol? Fuck it, BAILEYS AT 11.30 BECAUSE CHRISTMAS.
8. Why do I have to get dressed because the cousins are coming over? They’re family, can’t they love me in my natural sloth state? Apparently not.
9. Sparkly eyeshadow for Christmas Day? Too much? Nah.
10. Definitely too much eyeshadow. Except my eyes have gone a bit blurry from all the Bucks Fizz so that might just be me.
11. I’ll be a good daughter and help cook dinner…WOAH maybe don’t interfere after all.
12. Where’s the Quality Street?
13. OH MY GOD, FOOD. So blessed, so happy, thank you for this lord
14. Except, oh, my potatoes are burnt/turkey is dry/gravy got forgotten. Oh well, I can still eat triple I normally would.
15. Is 3 slices of pudding too much?
16. Wow, definitely too much food. Cramps.
17. Am I meant to enjoy the queens speech? Does it make me more cultured if I say I do or do I sound stuck up?
18. JESUS, mega food cramps.
19. Oh god, I’m definitely drunk now. How much can I drink in front of my boyfriends nan?
20. Oh wait, she’s asleep/drunk too. No worries.
21. ALL THE WINE.
22. I need my bed now. I’ve already fallen asleep with my cracker hat on and I need help.
23. Hiccup.
24. Wow, Christmas is overrated. When I’ve moved out it’ll be better cause I can at least choose my own tree. NEW YEARS RESOLUTION.

BLOGMAS: HOW I’M FINDING VLOGMAS

How I’m finding vlogmas

Answer you’re expecting: Amazing!

Short answer: HARD.

Real Answer: still hard, but I’m learning a lot and getting a massive sense of achievement from it. I haven’t done any videos really this year…and this month so far I’ve gotten one online every day! (Apart from days 3&4 where it was a combined video (link) but COME ON, I really have piled on the pressure this year-have a look at my December stress)

I knew vlogmas was going to be tough but I really didn’t appreciate how difficult it would be to juggle it with a full time job and life too. For anyone considering doing it next year, I would say go for it but be as prepared as you possibly can! Spare camera batteries, a solution if something stops working, a schedule, an intro, get it all planned before you start. And don’t let ANYTHING distract you, because once your drop the ball it’s over!

What I find interesting is how everyone knows december isn’t full of Christmassy happiness. Life happens, but we still (or at least , I do) expect videos and blog posts to all go perfectly and be pretty little snippets of our lives. My decorations look great, but I very much cried when my laptop froze mid way through editing. I’ve had some super cute moments with family, but they’ve teased me about filming excessively too. Nothing is perfect, and I learnt to stop expecting it to be on day 3/4 (watch my meltdown here)

But I’m back on it now-and loving it. I can celebrate Christmassy awesomeness at the same time as being honest about my life. As jealous as I am of those perfect bloggers that get it all done and looking amazing everyday-i know life isn’t really like that. I hope you’re enjoying my vlogmas, with all the ups and downs included.

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Lots of love,
Lizzie xo